door #50

" you must knock on door number 25 or 50 or 100

as enthusiastically as you did on the first door that was closed in your face

you need to be prepared for a lot of rejection and never give up enthusiasm

it'll get you eventually to a successful area"

. . . 

- john paul dejoria (co-founder of paul mitchell hair and patron spirits)

read this powerful quote 

and it resonated with me

knocking on door #50 

without loosing enthusiasm

takes a great deal of faith

we tend to expect what we are used to

50 doors slammed in our faces

we expect door #51 to produce the same result

almost a defense mechanism

preparing for the worst

the challenge is to prepare for the best

keeping a glimmer of hope

never loosing enthusiasm

that maybe the next door just might be it

. . . 

found this image while cleaning out my computer

shot last year while i was in barcelona

i spent a day solo

traveling to a small town i had heard of

scary experience getting lost in a foreign country with limited phone/internet access

but well worth it

. . . 

be bold

be enthusiastic

prepare for the best

part II

you've always moved to the beat of your own drum

beautiful and terrifying

at the same time

i tried to catch up

tried to hold on

knowing eventually

i'd need to stand still

and watch you walk

. . . 

love is

love is patient

love is kind

it does not envy

it does not boast

it is not proud

it does not dishonor others

it is not self-seeking

it is not easily angered

it keeps no record of wrongs

love does not delight in evil

but rejoices with the truth

it always protects

always trusts

always hopes

always perseveres

love never fails

. . . 

love gives us freedom from our past

gives us peace

and hope for the future

so everyday i meditate on what love really is

and the perfect unconditional love that comes from God

the goal is to love the right way

because after-all

love is

the only thing that really matters

. . . 

marina abromovic

artist inspiration - marina abromovic

i've been so inspired by this incredible artist

known as the grandmother of performance art

she is absolutely limitless

her philosophy

and the way she puts her all into her art

is beyond incredible

'i think one of the main question is if someone is an artist at all 

because you can proclaim you are an artist

maybe you are not

maybe you are better doing something else

to know if you are an artist or not is breathing

you don't question breathing

you have to breathe otherwise you just die

 so you breathe

so if you wake up in the morning 

and you have some ideas 

and you have to make them 

and this becomes like a a kind of almost obsession 

and you have this urge to create 

then you are definitely an artist

but you're not a great artist

'the great artists have to be ready to fail

which not too many do

because when you have success in a certain way

and the public accepts you in a certain way

you start somehow involuntary reproducing the same images

the same types of work

and you are not risking

the real artists go to the lengths they've never been

and there is unknown territory

and you can fail

ready to fail

that makes great artists'

'if you want to be famous and rich

forget the idea of being an artist

money and success is not [the] aim

just a side effect

sometimes it happens in your life time

sometimes not'

'you need the courage

when you become routine

that is the end of everything

i do the work i'm afraid of

if i'm really afraid of an idea

this is exactly where i need to go. . .'

her documentary is currently on netflix

a must watch for all artists

absolutely mesmerizing

. . .

(all images found on the web)

trust

image source

exile

if we must

both

be right.

we will

lose

each other.

- exile

nayyirah waheed. salt

do it afraid

at times
i've let fear cloud my judgement
i've held back on what's in my heart
its the fear of being judged
fear of failure

turns out

as human beings

we will always experience fear to an extent

it's how we navigate them

that makes all the difference

'do it afraid'
it's walking in faith
regardless of the doubts and fears that come in the way
it's going ahead and setting those high goals
it's not waiting for the fear to disinigrate
its taking that leap anyway
trusting that you'll grow the wings
. . .

"may your choices reflect your hopes, not your fears"
- Nelson Mandela